My aHa moment :D

Well, tomorrow is the weigh in and I'm sure I'm not going to do very well. I have plenty of excuses as usual...I was busy, I'm on my period, I didn't count points blah blah blah. But I'm hoping that will change. When I hear people that have lost weight they always talk about a moment when they realized they needed to change. I think that happened to me this weekend. It wasn't just one moment but a series of moments. First, even though he doesn't ever say it I really think Luke doesn't think that I'll be able to do it...but why should he? How many times have I tried and failed? It's getting ridiculous, quite frankly. One of the other moments was when I was looking at pictures that Luke had taken of me and Lisa while we were doing fireworks. I was wearing my swimsuit with my cute new shorts (which I think shrunk which doesn't help either) and my legs were huge...and whiter than white! Lisa has lost like 20 pounds since she separated with Zak and she looks amazing, all she does is eat smaller portions, stress and have an amazing metabolism. So she is also my inspiration when I see her every day at work. So, my solution to these realizations? Well I'm always talking about want to dress nicer at work and get new clothes but I don't want to because I'm going to lose weight. Well, after buying my super cute new workout outfit I quickly realized after a couple of times wearing it...I stink worse than ever! So, I want to get another one, and a work outfit. BUT I first have to lose 10 pounds. Then after that I can use my budget to buy a new workout outfit and a whole new work outfit shoes and all. Then every ten pounds after that I get to get a new outfit....workout, play or work. :) You've got to help motivate me to do this then by the time I get to my goal weight hopefully the more recently bought outfits will still fit and then I can get a few more. I really hope it sticks this time, and one day I will have the self confidence I deserve. Love you and hope to hear from you soon! :D